The "newest" standing stone...

In order for my blog to completely fulfill it's name, 

I must write about something that God has been doing in my life.  

This is "My Ebenezer"!  

For the last 2 years (my senior year at Cornerstone Bible Institute and this freshmen/senior year at Calvary Bible College), I have been living amid the questions pertaining to my future.  I know that people mean well when they ask about my future plans, but sometimes I really don't want to have to say the same thing again, "I don't know!"   


*Some friends of mine even thought of making a t-shirt for All Seniors that said "Yes, I'm graduating.  No, I don't know what I am doing with my life!" to make the whole questioning thing easier! :)* 

Yet, these years have been so good.  If only to learn over and over again of the reality of 

trusting God in everything.  

Just a little history:  It was actually last year, at about this same time, that I was frustrated (for the 1st time) with the whole "future" question.  I was just finishing up my last year at Bible school and didn't really have a goal in life.  One of my friends was planning on going on in school to finish up her degree, but I just wasn't sure I wanted to be in school any more.  After much crying and praying and asking questions and talking with my parents, I finally decided to apply for Calvary Bible College to get my BA.  


Standing Stone 1: And fast forward.  I was accepted and came to Kansas City, MO in August!  This is where God wanted me. That's all I can say.  There are so many things that I have learned/am still learning.  I have loved the opportunity to grow in my walk with Christ in a different environment.  


Fast Forward again:  February/March 2012  The question comes back to haunt me, "What are you doing after you graduate?"  This time I had a little more to answer, but I still am not sure what I will do.  I desire to move toward full-time ministry, but I don't know what that will be or how it will look.  All I know is that I want to be able to serve God wherever I am.  


Standing Stone 2: Once again, God is so faithful to guide and direct our steps as we wait on Him.  I was encouraged by others to pray about applying and interviewing for the Resident Director position here at Calvary.  


First thought: I don't want to go to school anymore!  


Second thought:  Remember, Bekah, you want to serve God wherever!  


Third thought: Maybe school wouldn't be too bad, especially if I can have the opportunity to get to know and minister to the other girls in the dorm.  


Fourth thought:  What about paying for another year of school?  


So, after much prayer, tears, frustrated phone calls, and talks with my parents, I went ahead and applied.  


PEACE.  
There was such a wonderful feeling of the peace of God that I had from just doing what I could (apply) and leaving that there...with God!  What does God do?  Supply His grace and faithfulness for every need!!!  


The Present:  I was accepted!  Lord willing, I am planning on coming back for the 2012-2013 school year as the RD.  I am going to take classes to fulfill that position, but as of right now, I am not planning on finishing out another degree.  
More than this, I don't know.  Sometimes, I still want the t-shirt, but then I remember something that my Mom encouraged me to think about.  
The next time someone asks me what I am doing with my life, I can say, 
"I don't know; but I serve the Almighty God who knows everything and has my life in His hand!"  


"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat, nor about your body, what you will put on.  For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing.  Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds!... Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.  But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith!  And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried.  For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you."  Luke 12:22-24, 27-31